back to the weekend

So yesterday was good and bad..

I wasn't feeling so hot so I told the nurse since they are always asking if im nauseated and what not then it was the normal any contractions cramping and such all those were no!!! so she let me rest for a bit then offered a sprite which I took.. in the meantime she called the doctor and got Zofran and tada I felt so much better! was so nice. Ordered a small lunch sandwich and salad and jello and just watched shows on tv and relaxed. then hubby and Amelia came!!! They were planning to stay all night but Amelia had a different plan of being super loud and crying like we were killing her and such so we decided it was best if they didn't stay.. it really sucked but at the same time I know it was for the best.     it was much less stressful... I did cry for a few minutes it was kind of awful feeling you know?! so my nurse had come to check on me and saw I was upset... I explained and she said is there anything I can get you? I just asked for water and she said how about pudding :D so I said yes.. and then she called and said she had ice cream!!!! so she brought me 2! It was so sweet!

(slightly tmi) I was soooo excited to have a razor to shave my under arms last night and my legs!!! seriously!!! and I have clothes now instead of a gown.

And I got a super sweet gift from The Hellers. (we met them while living in Germany while matt was deployed) Lots of things to keep busy puzzle books and a book and shea infused socks and lotions and a card! <3

Today has gone well so far and will continue to do so I hope!
Apparently Friday is weigh day! I Could have sworn to you that I gained weight.. when I last was weighed at the doctor I weighed 183. today 182.6. seriously how does that happen I feel like all I do is eat here! so I ordered a donut with breakfast this morning ;) and hubby is going to come back without Amelia so that he can spend some time with me and get a little break from her (he does get a break during the day at work but work isn't really a break) this way he can visit and talk to me which he hasn't gotten to really do all week!

and a friend is supposed to visit today as well! we shall see where this day takes us!

7 days today...

One week down today.. if I hadn't had that appointment last Thursday to check on their growth I may have delivered them early so im so thankful for that appointment even if it sent me here ;)

Yesterday was a GREAT day! Lindsey came to see me! We had a really good 3 hour visit and was nice to have someone other than nurses to talk to ;). She brought me some snacks and she also brought a present for me from her friend Shawna (who ive never met) .. really it was the sweetest! she also brought me a card from the pwoc class and I received a letter in the mail at the hospital thanks to family members :)

I also really got to talk to matt about some important stuff in our life like go or stay during the deployment new house now or new house later that sorta stuff.. obviously none of those can really be answered because we don't know when our sweet little daughters will arrive but we have ideas and that makes it a little better..

we also got to Skype last night and then Amelia went to bed for him at a semi normal time <3 love it!!!!! it made it easier for me to relax knowing he would be able to get some sleep. while of course it sucks here because well im not with family and I have to stay in bed but my only real worry has to be these babies.. while my husband has to work and take care of our crazy child and worry about me and the girls and try to keep it all together and make everything happen.. <3 So I really appreciate all the little things he does! Just love that man like no other <3

on the agenda for today.. find a new book to start.. hopefully catch up on shows.. and then seeing my loves tonight <3 and of course ill be able to get out of this crazy gown and into clothes! ill feel a little more like me!!!

Jumping for joy in my mind ;)

I'm 24 weeks im 24 weeks im 24 weeks!!!!

Sorry just had to put that out there! Its a huge milestone for the girls!! They are now considered viable and have a better chance of making it based on the fact their lung are a little more mature as well as their other organs :D ***happy dance*** well not literally because im still in bed ;)

Today Lindsey is going to visit :) so after my breakfast comes im going to shower and that way I will look human again ;)

yesterday went well. no contractions. I read 85 percent of a book which ill finish today and then I took a nap and relaxed and spoke to hubs and baby girl and then I tried to sleep but hey that didn't work great... everytime I got comfy the babies would move or my hip would go to sleep.

excited for Thursday :D get to see Amelia and Matt and hes going to bring much needed stuff for me :D clothes and such since I don't have to be in this silly gown..

watched the bachelor last night. thinking jaun Pablo is an idiot and well I hope neither of the girls say yes ;) but hey that's just me. cant wait for the tell all.. Tonight is American idol cannot wait!!!!

Almost to 24

So I woke up with a headache that I had taken meds for last night.. so my nurse brought a Tylenol and some coke :D lol. and then I had breakfast and its fairly gone just a slight ache now.

Thoughts for the day so far..
* when the babies come and Matt deploys do I stay here or go home like we originally planned?!
*If I can get through today with no complications well be at 24 weeks tomorrow <3

So ive read some this morning and I have thought about a shower but haven't really done anything since my shower yesterday so for now that's a no. I plan to ask the nurse if matt brings me some leggings/sweats and tanks if I can wear that instead of this gown lol...

Madelyn and Abigail are super active today and they were the same last evening..

seeing commercials for chocolate covered strawberries and delicious seafood yeah that doesn't help cravings.. nor did the ribs on the Bachelor last night.. hello preggo cant get those in here!! ;)

trying to think of things I can do in bed and use my time up wisely :D

should be starting some physical therapy today or tomorrow as well.. just some small exercises to help keep me from getting too weak while in bed..

okie dokie im done rambling for now but check back later im sure there will be more :D

end of the day unwind...

Today was a good day.. woke up late had breakfast and a shower then took a short nap.. skyped with my brother who sent me about 60 Skype pics of myself... lol. Then did a little reading (currently reading 'maybe one day' ) and talked with hubby and Amelia after they got home. Had some dinner and then skyped with mom..

Also had two surprises today.. a friend Madison sent me an amazon gift card to buy a book and my brother sister sister in law mother and step dad sent flowers 😊

The hardest part of everyday right now is Amelia crying when we get off Skype and knowing she isn't going to bed so well for her daddy.. 😢 but hoping she'll get used to this arrangement for now.. counting the days til I see them 😊

A new day

So Last night was uneventful thankfully!

Nurse gave me meds at 6:30am and I went back to sleep. Managed to sleep until almost 9!!!
I knew at that point I should probably be up and eating/drinking since they think that may have had something do to with the other day.. So I ordered breakfast and then my nurse for this shift came in checked my vitals and the babies heart rates and then I ate :D

Now I've showered and am back to my much more comfy bed since she added an egg crate to make it more comfortable since ill be here for awhile..

Was kind of nervous to shower today just because the day I went over to labor and delivery I had showered and then Amelia Matt and I went for lunch downstairs (I rode in a wheelchair) and then when I came back I tried to nap and it started so I was a little nervous.. So far so good. oh and yeah until ive been here a little longer no wheelchair rides for me. bathroom/chair/bed/window seat... those are my options..

My nurse today is Mollie.. She kind of reminds me of my mom. Same hair cut and build and a bubbly smiley personality.. :D I haven't had the same nurse two times yet..

Today I think ill try to read a bit and make a list of the things I need hubby to pack for a friend to bring or for him to bring when he comes.. oh and you know relax and sleep and Skype lol.

I'm sure more rambling will come to mind later ;)

All the thoughts in my head...

Well as I spent most of today by myself which I knew was coming and will be like that most days I learned all kinds of new things about my new laptop/pad that hubby and baby girl bought me. I skyped with some family talked on the phone and well slept ;)..


After a phone call with hubby I felt like dang I wish I had just known this was coming.. obviously there was no way I cant blame myself and that such but still you know I wish I had stocked the house with easy food and stuff for Amelia and had everything cleaned all the stuff picked up put away and all of that ;).. I was lazy for the last two weeks until the day of my doctors appointment. I had a little free time thanks to lindsey taking her early for me and got all but dishes done and laundry put away.. but as with everything I cant change it have to let it go.


We were/are prepping for a deployment and had planned on traveling to Pennsylvania in 2ish weeks so I wasn't keeping stock of food just buying what we needed here and there.. and then I had made some plans with family to help obviously when I got there so I feel bad about that too but again cant change it just thanking god I wasn't already driving when I went into preterm labor yesterday and im thanking god for another day of my "crumb snatchers" in womb as my mom likes to call them now.. (long story having to do with my grandpa saying that to her while preggo with me)..


So with that I think ill try and relax and find something on tv to watch til they come do my vitals check and monitor the babies.. then sleepytime!


Having to Skype goodnight with your family sucks but ill take it it could be nothing!

23 weeks and 4 days..

 My name is Amanda and I'm currently 23 weeks and 4 days pregnant with fraternal twin girls.. This past week I went to the doctor to have my growth scan done to make sure babies were growing together and that they were healthy before my next doctors appointment. Well that didn't end so well.
As we sat there I could tell that they were measuring my cervix with the ultrasound and the tech asked if I had been having any contractions or pains.. Then the doctor came in and he said well were going to do an internal ultrasound and an exam and some tests and well figure out where to go from there.

So after the internal ultrasound and such he sat us down and told us that my cervix was opening from the inside or funneling. and that they were going to transfer me to a different hospital in Austin an hour from our house. In case of delivery this hospital has a wonderful nicu who have dealt babies with this small.. Thankfully we have great friends who kept our daughter and Matt ran home to get all her stuff and take care of the dog and such and then headed to the hospital while I rode in the ambulance.. I got to the hospital in Austin around 7 that night and Matt wasn't far behind.. they started me on magnesium and put a catheter in and these boots on my legs to make sure I didn't get a blood clot. all very scary at the time but we were told my cervix from the outside was closed.

The next morning we saw a maternal fetal medicine doctor and she confirmed my cervix was funneling but still closed from the outside so they said bed rest in hospital until at least 27 weeks at which point our hospital near home could care for the babies if they came. so they moved me over to postpartum and put a pessary in to help support my cervix. All went well that day Matt and Amelia came down that evening and spent the night here with me.

Saturday morning Amelia and Matt stayed for lunch and then were going to go home and then come  back Sunday morning since we wont get to see a lot of each other throughout the week because of his work schedule and the travel time to the hospital. Well that plan didn't happen. After about 2 hours of him being gone I started having some cramping and back pain. I called the nurse and she called Labor and delivery and they came to monitor me. I wasn't showing contractions on the monitor but when she checked me she said I had dilated to have my husband come back and that I was being moved to labor and delivery again.

I was wheeled over put in a bed they started mag and an antibiotic and such in case I did deliver.. they continued to monitor and I was showing contractions . Matt and our friend Morgan came in and they continued to monitor and then nicu came to talk to us. Its one of the hardest parts of this I think. Hearing that if I would deliver at this point the babies would only have a 10-15 percent chance at life but that if I could keep them in a few more days it would double and double again in another week. I had read all of this but of course having a doctor saying it makes it much worse.

So later they had the doctor come check me she said I hadn't made any change :D and that I was allowed to eat and they would disconnect the ivs except fluid and let me rest. I got an entire nights sleep thanks to Ambien and woke up feeling great. We were asked if I deliver do we want them to try everything in their power to save our babies of course we said yes. how could we not. these two little angels have been behaving today and I'm just resting! <3

Ill be keeping this blog as kind of a journal a way to vent if you will at least for now and so that all the gory details aren't on facebook.. you are more than welcome to share and please say a prayer <3 every day I can keep them in helps them tremendously!

oh and sorry I'm awful at the whole writing thing so just remember this is like my mind on paper a mile a minute..