23 weeks and 4 days..

 My name is Amanda and I'm currently 23 weeks and 4 days pregnant with fraternal twin girls.. This past week I went to the doctor to have my growth scan done to make sure babies were growing together and that they were healthy before my next doctors appointment. Well that didn't end so well.
As we sat there I could tell that they were measuring my cervix with the ultrasound and the tech asked if I had been having any contractions or pains.. Then the doctor came in and he said well were going to do an internal ultrasound and an exam and some tests and well figure out where to go from there.

So after the internal ultrasound and such he sat us down and told us that my cervix was opening from the inside or funneling. and that they were going to transfer me to a different hospital in Austin an hour from our house. In case of delivery this hospital has a wonderful nicu who have dealt babies with this small.. Thankfully we have great friends who kept our daughter and Matt ran home to get all her stuff and take care of the dog and such and then headed to the hospital while I rode in the ambulance.. I got to the hospital in Austin around 7 that night and Matt wasn't far behind.. they started me on magnesium and put a catheter in and these boots on my legs to make sure I didn't get a blood clot. all very scary at the time but we were told my cervix from the outside was closed.

The next morning we saw a maternal fetal medicine doctor and she confirmed my cervix was funneling but still closed from the outside so they said bed rest in hospital until at least 27 weeks at which point our hospital near home could care for the babies if they came. so they moved me over to postpartum and put a pessary in to help support my cervix. All went well that day Matt and Amelia came down that evening and spent the night here with me.

Saturday morning Amelia and Matt stayed for lunch and then were going to go home and then come  back Sunday morning since we wont get to see a lot of each other throughout the week because of his work schedule and the travel time to the hospital. Well that plan didn't happen. After about 2 hours of him being gone I started having some cramping and back pain. I called the nurse and she called Labor and delivery and they came to monitor me. I wasn't showing contractions on the monitor but when she checked me she said I had dilated to have my husband come back and that I was being moved to labor and delivery again.

I was wheeled over put in a bed they started mag and an antibiotic and such in case I did deliver.. they continued to monitor and I was showing contractions . Matt and our friend Morgan came in and they continued to monitor and then nicu came to talk to us. Its one of the hardest parts of this I think. Hearing that if I would deliver at this point the babies would only have a 10-15 percent chance at life but that if I could keep them in a few more days it would double and double again in another week. I had read all of this but of course having a doctor saying it makes it much worse.

So later they had the doctor come check me she said I hadn't made any change :D and that I was allowed to eat and they would disconnect the ivs except fluid and let me rest. I got an entire nights sleep thanks to Ambien and woke up feeling great. We were asked if I deliver do we want them to try everything in their power to save our babies of course we said yes. how could we not. these two little angels have been behaving today and I'm just resting! <3

Ill be keeping this blog as kind of a journal a way to vent if you will at least for now and so that all the gory details aren't on facebook.. you are more than welcome to share and please say a prayer <3 every day I can keep them in helps them tremendously!

oh and sorry I'm awful at the whole writing thing so just remember this is like my mind on paper a mile a minute..