Yesterday was a fantastic day! I woke up crabby bc they came at 6:30 for my meds then 7 for blood work and 7:30 for vitals and baby heart rates.. so I ordered breakfast and tried to nap and then dad called and mom called so I just said ill just stay awake! around 11:30 my nurse came in and said I wanted to ask if you wanted to go downstairs and have lunch with me. She said normally I wouldn't ask but since I know your husband only comes on the weekends and you just got wheelchair privileges... I of course said heck yes!!! so into a chair I went and down we went. I had tilapia and rice since I cant get that on a normal basis.. and a Fanta.. bubbly and caffeine free :D we sat in the little park! it was slightly windy but warm enough to not wear a coat and the sun was shining. I said no to dessert since I still had strawberries in my room. then I came back upstairs and just kind of hung out and relaxed. I started my 1500 piece puzzle and then ordered dinner.. found a second thing on the menu I don't like.. their mac and cheese.. its like homemade but its gritty.. :/ ew! lol ill stick with the garlic mashed potatoes :D
Today I woke up late and had breakfast.. then I showered and now im just waiting on Matt and Amelia to visit.. I think the thing that gets me here is that slowly the stuff going on in my life gets to my doctors and when they mention it and I elaborate about everything going on outside of this hospital room they are amazed at how im not depressed and going crazy. I said I cant change anything that's happening outside of here. I can only hope things will get better and take the good with the bad and smile. I do cry I do break down but then I pick myself up and move on. sometimes a snickers helps or just a card or a visit and other days I just want my husband or to hear his voice and im better. but ive learned to deal with things and I choose the way that's positive. Everything happens for a reason. I don't know that reason nor will I ever but what I do know is if I face it instead of hiding from it it has to get better.
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